Wow it's been almost a year

Well where did the time go. Didn't realize it's been almost a since I posted last. Not sure what to start with. Let's just sum this year up in a word: SUCKTASTIC!! Yup nothing really good happened this year. Weight loss stalled when the pain in my foot became so bad I couldn't go to the gym for months. I had surgery in September to remove massive heel spurs but I'm still in more pain than I can describe. Work has been really bad. Cut the hours but expect more from each person. Personally I can't work any harder than I do. My ass is as big as 2 people's but I only have two hands. My family (mother and sister) still piss me off on a regular basis. Oh to live in someone elses house while they pay all the bills and watch as things get more expensive and not chip in anymore to live there. My marriage has continued on a downhill spiral to the point of me asking him to leave. Damn if he didn't say no. Bills continue to pile up and I keep hoping that some year come December I won't be saying "just 8 more weeks till I can file income tax." The only bright spot in my life continues to be my daughter. She's what keeps me going in the dark times. I'm amazed everyday at the beauty that I created. And not just on the outside. She is truely beautiful on the inside too. So as I head into a new year I hope for change. Not just in my physical being but in my spirit too. I want peace and prosperity for me and my family. We deserve that as so many others do. We work hard for our money and would really like to have just a little to spend on us. I want to resolve the issues in my marriage or have the courage to end it. I want to get my ass back in the gym and finish getting this extra weight off. I know my arthritis will improve once I start working out again. I hope everybody gets what they want for Christmas and the New Year treats you better than this one did.

Out with the old and in with the new

I'm not a vain person. I'm being honest when I say I am not a pretty person. The only thing I have going for me is my hair. Yes I have great hair. It's been every length and just about every color. Unfortunately all the women in my mom's family when gray very early. I am no exception. For over 20 years I colored my hair. 6 months ago I stopped. What came in was gray. Not that pretty Jamie Lee Curtis gray, just full head salt and pepper. I hated it. It made me look much older than my 43 years. And it made me see my mother in the mirror. I hated it. I received a lot of nice compliments from my friends and family. But I hated it. Get the picture yet. Ya... I really hated it. Monday when I looked in the mirror at the gym after a terrific workout I decided it needed to go. I stopped at my salon and booked the first open appointment with my stylist Roxie. We go back 20 years. She did my hair for my wedding and even took the clothes off the clothes line as my guest were arriving. It's her favorite bride story to tell. She had been trying to talk me out of growing it out all along. But I did it anyways. Tuesday at 3:30 I went in and took at least 15 years off my face. I feel so much better about myself now. It's one thing to not be a pretty woman but I don't need to look old too. Some might say it's just hair but to me it's all I have going for me physically. Maybe when I have completed my weight loss journey I'll think about my physical being differently, but for now it's good bye gray hello whatever the hell combination Roxie colored me with. I couldn't be happier. Now if only the hair color made me look 50lbs thinner along with 15 years younger.